4 year since you died my God I wish I had been with you or even could have spoken to you , I am so sorry i was not with you ,I pray now you are at peace and God has you in his arms ,my wee brother you did some great adventures in your life and you where a good man had it all ,then the demons got hold of you ,and your life ended when you meet the wrong person what happened to you i will never know perhaps you loved the wrong one, nothing wrong with loving some  one but they have to love you back ,if not it can make a person crazy ,all I can think is no you were not crazy you where a beautiful person and i miss you every day my Wee brother BRIAN